lol i figured my last post was kinda depressing after the feedback i got :X

anws, life's looking up cuz there's only 2.4 weeks of school left! :DDDDD and and and i'm probably going to ny next weekend to escape the spring fling madness. i know its crazy- 4 years at penn and i've never been to fling stuff (clubsg's fling bbq doesn't really count). and somehow i don't feel a need to go. :) i'm excited about seeing mel, shopping, and maybe seeing ks and kath too :)

there's a bunch of reports, presentations and exams to get through- but i think its gonna be ok :)

Life seems empty now. :( Spring break was amazing but I'm kinda depressed now. School's just a mindless blur of psets and group projects which I'm not interested in. The best part of sch is being able to meet up with and hang out with friends (whom I won't see much of soon) easily. I seek reprieve in shopping but that's been a disaster for my bank account. :( Need to make $$$$$ last till end of sem. Sighs. Two more months to go. Wish me luck.

a gorgeous dress

discovered marchesa today. their dresses are so pretty :)

cool collages

cool collages of a previous blogpost courtesy of www.wordle.net which yh introduced to me :)

Places to try out in NY

Brunch
Locanda Verde
Wallse

Dinner
Public
Le Benardin
wd~50

I bought this..



when I want this..



is there something wrong with me?

*update: the shoe arrived n i realized that i really like it! :) i wldn't mind getting the other pair too though! *hint hint* :D

Is expensive food not for me?

In the past 2 weeks, I've been to two of the top restaurants in new york with a couple of friends, 1 of whom, s, went on both trips. I can't help but feel that both meals let me down in a way. The food was good, and the service was impeccable, but there's just this nagging feeling that I'm spending way too much on food, and that I could be happier with simpler food. Perhaps these restaurants are meant for people with muchos money who don't care how much they spend on meals, cuz I guess when you care, the meal seem less impressive? I don't know if I should continue to try the other top restaurants, especially since I have budgetary constraints, but at the same time, when else would I be so free again? XD I used to see myself as someone who knows how to appreciate good food, but after this experience, perhaps I'm not "atas" enough..

hmm somehow interesting convos always take place over mussels and beer. XD yday I dragged s downtown for mussels and managed to con him into doing some shopping too! :) an on-the-spot decision to pop into brooks brothers resulted in him finding a really nice work shirt! in his specific size and fit, no less. club monaco proved fruitful too, with both s and me picking up stuff we really like. :)

anws, the mussels shrank.. :( we discussed elitism. according to s, every one of us is elitist to some degree. some of us are just better at hiding it than others. lol. quite true isn't it? now I don't feel so bad about being accused of being elitist =_=

i want :P

spending too much $$$

I've bought these two on a spur of the moment cuz they're gorgeous and will work so well for work! :X


.. and now I'm lusting after this one.

Nice pic of a walk in wardrobe found via soon lee. XD

I'll need more storage space in mine, but otherwise it's a really nice design.

School is very very boring. It's only week 4 and I feel like strangling myself. :( There was a scary snowstorm last sat which buried my car. I made my roommates help me dig out my car. :P After which we had a snow fight and made loads of snow angels in the garden of the deserted school building which has loads of nice fluffy snow. :D



We're expecting another snow storm tomorrow night. :( GRRRR. I don't want to dig my car out again. :(((((((((((((

graduation present

So goose bought me this for my graduation present.

Thanks, dear! :) I'm muchos muchos happy.

I had a nice convo with S over mussels and beer at monk's today. We talked about bubbles, and how JC life was a huge bubble, where all we cared about was school related. CCAs, grades, getting into a good college etc etc. Life was so much simpler back then. Now, there's all sort of things to think about- financial crises, joblessness, control issues in government, and so much more! Sometimes I feel that thinking more makes the world feel bleaker.. but that is not an excuse to think any less.. we might want to be in a bubble, to be sheltered from the realities of life, but they will still be there, whether we think about them or not. So why not think about them, and perhaps, we can make a difference.

I really haven't been blogging much at all. Reading nad's and s's blogs has made me feel like being more introspective. In the past two semesters, I have focused on getting an internship/a job- sometimes, it seems, so much that I've stopped to think about improving myself, about finding out who I truly am and really want. This is probably also due to me being in a somewhat "long-term" relationship for the first time. Being together with someone does make life less flexible in a way, but me thinks more enjoyable (for now at least). Major life decisions have to involve considering the bf and his preferences, some times so much that I feel not very me. It's good though, I suppose. Part of growing up and all is to learn to care for people and even put them above self.

Some of nad's comments have made me think that perhaps, gasps, I am boring. In some sense of the word, I am. I do not seek to hurl myself towards developing countries with a backpack. I have no obscure interests. I don't like extreme sports, or even any sports that carries a relatively high risk of injury. I like having a simple life and being happy even though I don't really know what it takes to make me happy. So far I've just amassed a list of things which I know make me unhappy, or does not make me happy, but where is that elusive end of the rainbow where all is good? Perhaps it's a figment of my imagination and doesn't really exist. Sometimes life confuses me.