Five happy months.. :) That's probably deemed as short by most, but I feel like we've been together forever. I guess that's partly due to us knowing each other for four years before getting together. I love my dear. :D

Anyways, school's really getting me down. Bombed 2 midterms this week and they're both chemical engineering ones. UGH. WHY AM I SO BAD AT MY MAJOR? I need to start understanding everything thoroughly instead of superficially... :((((( BUCK UP!

I think I'm going shopping tomorrow to get the stress out of my system. :P

I feel kind of messed up. I'm not sure what I'm doing/want to do, and life just seems to be going out of control. I'm not paying as much attention to my classes as I would like.

I think that above all, I want to have a happy family, but what about career wise? I can't even decide on a geographical location.. :(

I love my silly bf. LOL. He really puts up with all my nonsense.

It's v-day tomorrow and the bf is far far away. :( I miss him loads, and I'd only next see him in a month's time. I guess that isn't exactly that far away, but it feels like it is.. :((

Working in the lab has been fun.. I love my prof, he's super nice and energetic and teaches us a lot. ;)

I feel a need for self improvement. I should read more (newspapers and such), do more and basically be exposed to more things. I've realized that I read next to nothing outside of coursework and job search related books during the semester, and this has to change!! It's unhealthy to read so little.. I miss the times where I could devour book after book. School was so much more fun (read: slack) back in Singapore. XP

Am I expecting too much from the bf? :( Been snapping at him a fair bit recently.. I guess both of us are stressed out about work/finding a job, and we haven't been talking as much recently. I just feel that he doesn't seem to care as much any more and it just irks me. :(( I burst out in tears while talking to him this morning before my interview... and ended up red nosed and sore eyed at my interview. SIGHS. Why must it be like that? Perhaps I'm expecting too much from him- more than what he's willing to give.. but still. Does that mean that we won't work out or just that I should be adjusting my expectations? :((((

Interviews went better than expected today. Now, fingers crossed.. and hope I proceed to the next round. :P I can't take this for much longer though. Even though having 4 interviews in a day is pretty tiring, it's actually rather productive too. :P I kinda got into the swing of things and each progressive one was better than the last. :) Now, fingers crossed for the one tomorrow.

Stress.....

I need to relax. This stress is not good for me..